random thoughts.. plus not-so-random thoughts..

• i read something from mars' blog. something like, is it possible to like two guys at the same time?
• i have to introspect
• if i'm not inlove with you, what is this i'm going through?
• small world, i just realized. maybe it's true that it really is possible to cross paths again with someone who you thought you'll never see again. like the movie serendipity. because it's like everyone's connected to one another pala, without your knowledge. tapos one time, you'll get surprised nalng because you found out he or she's the blah blah blah pala of ____. dba? galing naman.
• Pat and i delivered our sagutang diyalogo in Filipino class this morning. Ms. Dacutan, our fil teacher, went beyond her usual..rudeness? tactless _____. i soo hate her kanina, but it's ok with me na. whatever. hmmm... just hope she doesn't see this.
• what about us? what about feeling? what about all the things that make life worth living? what about faith? what about trust? tell me baby what about us?
• Rhia says i'm going crazy. hindi kaya. im just confused.
• why is it like this? even i can't decipher what i want to happen. or what i'm feeling.
• i'm currently in a perplexing phase.
• what will i do? you got me hooked?
• you're a temptation i want to indulge in.. shheeessshhh... say what?
• 'cause the lovin' ain't the same and you keep on playing games like you know i'm here to stay.. just shake it off..
• i want to go out
• i want to have a band. but the things is, i can't sing, and i don't know how to play any kind of instrument. i think i should learn at least one. my dad bought me a guitar last summer but it's still unused. weird noh, just a thought.

i find it uber frustrating when you want something so badly but everyone knows, even science and god knows that you can't and will never have it.

i want an older brother. but duh, im the eldest and i only have one sister. there's no way i can ever have a real kuya. waahh.. sounds mababaw and pathetic ba? but yesh, i seriously wish i have a legitimate older brother. but i'm satisfied na naman with having 2 kuya cousins. hahaha.. you, whoever's reading this, might ask why. uhm.. lot of reasons i'd rather keep to myself. (eia knows all the reasons why i want one. actually she wants one too. hahaha)

sheesh.. nia was absent in school today, god knows why. i assume she was just tinatamad. nia tamad. joke lng.

"before i let you go, i want to say i love you.... i hope that you're listening coz it's true.. baby.. you'll be forever in my heart. and i know that no one else will do.."--- i'm just singing. i do not.. i repeat do not love anyone. except my family and friends malamang.

people don't want him for me. some says i'm too good for him. some says i deserve someone better, physically and pati the personality and attitude. some says i'll get hurt lang sa kanya. but of course in the end, the decisions' still mine. havta find a way to not like him. hahaha! jologs

crap! i'm revealing too much na ata of what i'm feeling. but f*ck what do you care? whoever you are..

to those who're so insecure: just..get lost!