Collide-Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Singing Mode.. lalalalala

• I'm crazy for you.. touch me once and you'll know it's true.. I never wanted anyone like this. It's all brand new.. You feel it in my kiss.. I'm crazy for you..
• Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right? have you ever?
• There's this super cute song, Just The Girl by The Click5.. cute cute.. wala lang...

Shiny, Shimmery..

yipee.. Where will I study kaya? Ateneo or La Salle? I got accepted in both universities naman(galing ko noh?) but I'm still waiting for the UPCAT results. haha.. waaah.. I still don't know which course to take up. My course in DLSU is Business Management while in Ateneo, European Studies. GRRR... I shouldnt have put EU studies as my first choice. I changed my mind, I want Management Eco or Management. But I'm still sooo confused..

Uhm.. I copied these stuffs from a bulletin board post of my classmate.. I'll italicize the things that I like..

1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hott kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you're the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into each other's eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you're not with your guy he's all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and everytime you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say 'hi' and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you're sad, even if you're quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randonmly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn't mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that youare amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair,like he's washing your worries/troubles away.
35. A guy who tells you you make his day better, just for being you

I'm a sucker talaga for romantic movies and sweet people. That's why I'll never forget.......................... even if...........................

Tomorrow is our Chicago play.. For sure we're going to make a very sabog performance. duh.. no practice eh. as in.. I don't know nga what to do tom eh.. Let us all suck in agony.

mixed emotions. predominantly anger.

The Sweetest Thing...

There were times when I sit or lie down by myself and think of the scenes I've seen on movies or I've read in books which I find romantic and then imagine it happening to me. One of which is to watch awesome fireworks display together with someone special, or with someone you like. I'm not referring to ear-deafening firecrackers alright? I'm talking about the colorful, unique and big fireworks that shoot up the sky, like in the World Pyro Olympics which was recently held near the Mall of Asia in Roxas blvd. And then while watching, his hands find yours, the wind grows colder, he draws closer to you and nothing else matters anymore, just the two of you and the fireworks of course. Everything seems perfect and in place. Suddenly, your aching legs doesn't hurt anymore.. The both of you were silent for a while and then unexpectedly, the guy utters something you never thought you'd hear from him. "...I like you.." Your heart starts beating at a faster rate but you'd try to act as NR as possible, like hey, it was no big deal. But then again, he looks and stares at you while smiling, probably searching for any reactions on your face. Oh my, he's so charming and sweet, as usual and you find yourself blushing. You'll also smile because you can't help but to do so, you're so happy by what he said but half confused whether he's just kidding to piss you off or what. And then from then on... you'd be called a couple.. ghad, can't think of a better ending. haha..

But guess what, that scene actually happened to me. Yes.. it did!!! hahaha except the part when "..his hands find yours.." and "..from then on, you'd be called a couple.." The rest, it somehow did actually happen. Imagine, the two of you watching together the fireworks and then when you least expected it, those words came out of his mouth. haha Imagine, what a perfect setting talaga eh. Fireworks and then... waaah!!! But it was so malabo because it just wasn't supposed to happen talaga eh because he's __________________________________________________amp!............. ............. and.......................................................... damnit! It wasn't really supposed to happen.. but it did.. but wrong eh.. but it did.. but dapat talaga hindi na lang.. wah.. labo! still, I'm somehow you-know-what with it. awwww...

Farewell to the Year 2005..

wow... I love 2005.. so loved it.. I learned a lot of things, met new and interesting people, some of them are so damn nice while others hate you just because they're fuckin insecure.. I gained experiences that opened my mind to new possibilities, had some firsts which were at the beginning really scary and all.. and a whole lot more. wah, it surely was a blast. but ofcourse, I also had my encounters to bumpy, hell-like roads. kaya nga fun eh.. may variation of good and bad times. basta.. lav it! I also love December 28, 2005. hehe.. why? can't tell yah.. it's written in my diary. but basically EK trip yun with sila.............. sooo.. since it's January 1 na, new year, I want to list my reflections, insights, realizations or whatever you may call it, as a closure.. nax.. not in order ah.. random toh.. and later on.. if I have the time, I will make a New Year's resolution to start of 2006..

1. I had so much fun this year but the most miss-able month for me is the month of May. why? A lot of reasons. haha the people I met last summer made the remaining months of 2005 truly fun--->fun is an understatement. yesh i know.
2. You don't have to study so hard to get good grades.
3. You must learn how to balance your social life with studies. YinYang..
4. People can be so selfish and success oriented that they tend to forget and take you for granted.
5. You can fall for the most unlikely person. I mean, your idea of a perfect prince charming will seem to be void of meaning when destiny lets you meet the person who you really like.
6. You cannot force yourself to like someone even though he has the qualities of your so called ideal man.
7. Fickle-mindedness can be your downfall.
8. Playboys must mature na.. para happy..
9. ayoko ng torpe---?
10. ayoko ng masyadong mabilis
11. Don't push yourself too much on a person because you'll end up nakakasawa. sorry, kasalanan mo eh..
12. It's ok to blahblahblahblahblah...... baka mamisinterpret ng iba eh..
13. Do not drink mocha frappe almost everyday even if you think youd never get sick of it. Plus, it makes you gain weight like crazy. promise..
14. It's fun to have guy friends who don't LIKE you. as in like like.. gets? because you can say everything to them.. without hesitations.
15. Physical attraction won't last.
16. You should look for chemistry.
17. Stay away from drugs, and other vices.
18. I can't stand people who smoke. My friends must not smoke when they're near me.. or even 50 feet away from me. haha..
19. It's not really appealing to be super thin as in stick thin.
20. Work you charm whenever possible.
21. Never make a man the center of you life. NIA.. read #21
22. And never let your boyfriend maltreat you, disrespect you of whatever form.
23. Be in charge of your life.
24. There are people who are so charming that's why they are so likable kahit na they're not gwapo naman. kainis tuloy..
25. I love my family..
26. I love my friends..
27. I love food
28. I feel so unattractive when I have my period.
29. I can become super snappy when it is the time of the month
30. Learn to budget because what happened to me might happen to you. There was a time when I didnt receive my allowance for 2 weeks because I had to pay my cellphone bill.
31. If you're broke, magpaawa ka sa parents especially when they're in a good mood.
32. I still love Jenica even though we haven't seen each other since she moved to Woodrose in grade5. and she loves me back. awww...
33. I can easily open up to people with what I'm feeling
34. If you can't fight for me, loser ka.. ok?
35. There are some things you want so much but can never have. Like a Kuya, in my case.
36. Contentment is the key to be happy.
37. If you're down and depressed but have a lot of money to spend, go to the mall and buy whatever it is that you like. even if you dont need it. it will make you happy for sure..
38. But you may regret it afterwards.. so don't follow #37
39. Eat as much as you want to on Christmas season the starve yourself in January..
40. You'll end up with ulcer.. so don't do #39
41. basta.. learn to eat in moderation
42. You cannot please everyone.. but THEY must always try their best to please you.
43. It's ok to be mean and bitchy at times. Just remember that there are people more mean that you.
44. Don't be so critical of other people. haha
45. Do not be too serious about life.