random thoughts.. again...

1. hahaha!!! after school, we went to camille's house, which is just near STC.. then, we started making our project for trigo.. a diorama.. my groupmates are camille, jaire, pathech and nia.. but jo also came with us..
2. we'll finish it maybe tomorrow.. hahaha..
3. I had my first bite of isaw today! hahaha.. well, actually two small bites.. the first one was quite ok.. but the second bite.. eeewwwww.... i tasted something really really eeewwwyyy... haha but it was pretty fun to have my first bite of isaw with my friends.. hahaha so shallow...
4. ahaha!!! another first.. we watched *toot* ahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahh!!!!!!!!! so eww but funny talaga... but yuck pa rin... hahahaha... fun...
5. memorable day huh?
6. for some outlandish reason, STC shorties has added me in friendster. it says that they only add theresians 5'2 and below. uhm... Newsflash: I'm almost 5'6.. tsss...
7. btw, vicky's supposed to be in our group for the trigo proj. but she opted to join the group of the outstanding students in class(yup.. the smart-assed ones) it's kinda insulting really.. i mean.. yah sure, you're becoming like so desperate to have super high grades. so you rejected your friends and all. we rarely talk.. we barely hang out anymore.. i'm sure you know why... it's basically because you think your grades is everything.. and nothing else matters.. but ask yourself.. does it make you really happy? because based from what you told me before.. you're doing that to please your mom. you let them pressure you so much.. everytime i see you, it's either you're studying, cramming, complaining and the like. you're always nervous.. i'm not mad or anything ah.. i'm trying to understand.. of course we have different priorities but hello? life's too short not to enjoy it.. and to confine yourself in a room filled with books just to please other people..
8. i wanna learn how to play the guitar!!!!!
9. and probably form a band when I become really good at it..
10. hahaha.. wishful..
11. yael!!! i luuuuuveeeee your voice.. especially in jeepney.. ohgosh.. woohoo spongecola.. haha.. i'm listening kasi to their album right now eh..
12. i need to drink a lot of water..
13. and eat less.. but still eat chocolate.. lots of it..
14. let go of the hand of the person you love but dont let go of God's hand for when you hold his hand, He might be holding the person you love on his other hand.. to let you hold each other... in time.. (nice noh? got this from carlo the jester.. haha)
15. nakakatamad naman magattend ng practice tomorrow for the music play, chicago.. yeah.. cell block tango.. but still.. ntatamad ako..
16. grrrr... for the next three weeks, we're going to have saturday classes... talk about shit!
17. on the bright side.. i'm thinking.. since half day lang naman.. maybe we can go out after.. hmmm.. sounds fun...
18. coz my heart starts beating triple time.. with thoughts of loving you on my mind.. i cant figure out just what to do.. when the cause and cure is you...
19. i love jotting down my random thoughts..
20. so.. i'll probably do it more often than writing in paragraphs..
21. i love the song "promise i make"..

random thoughts..

1. grabe.. IV-2's nasa hot spot na naman.. dami problems and stuff.. i mean, there is no feud or whatsoever but basta.. no need to expound on that..
2. i miss reg. we used to always talk to each other, share what's going on in our lives, give advice.. and the like. so kanina, nagkwentuhan kami and gave me advice. awww... i dunno.. i miss reg.. even though i see her in class everyday..
3. i'm broke..
4. I'm getting fat.. sbi ni Pathech and laki daw ng tummy ko..
5. I have astig lip balms. m&ms, snapple grapes, snapple raspberry and apple flavor. and it taste good too. kai got skittles lime flavored one.. but i dont like lime..
6. Rhia's happy, i know.. her Martin's arrival is on Sunday..
7. I'm becoming iyakin. before talaga no.. but lately, when i hear my classmates' problems, tears roll down my eyes. maybe that means i'm not cold anymore. haha..
8. Rhia.. sino uli un nagpaiyak sa akin???
9. Kara, Eia and I were thinking of organizing a ball after graduation. hmmm.. sounds fun..
10. I know someone who's a poser..
11. Will my parents allow me to go out on Saturday? nah...
12. I've applied only in UP, ateneo and lasalle for college. kapal noh? what if I dont pass in any of these schools? tsss.. good thing there's gonna be anothere UA&P test in january. and there's always miriam as the laaast resort. but no way..
13. migrate kaya kami?
14. no.. not in a million years.. and that's not gonna happen anyway..
15. besides, i cant leave my friends here and i dont want a foreigner husband..
16. except maybe for adam brody..
17. oh yeah, i have a new seatmate.. camille..
18. good times don't last, neither the bad times.. so good, bad.. good, bad..
19. i miss you. i miss everything about you. enough said.
20. physics is super hard to understand. i mean, it's ok for me to memorize concepts and everything but i really hate computations..
21. di mo man lamang naisip.. na idahan dahan.... di ako sanay sa biglaan. unti unti nalng sanang nawala... tannie's fault. she was singing this practically the whole day. so now it's stuck on my mind..
22. nobody's gonna treat me better.. i must stick with you.. nobody's gonna love me better.. i must stick with you forever.. lavvv this song...

i hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair. i hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much, it makes me sick -- it even makes me rhyme. I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh --even worse, when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly, I hate the way I don't hate you -- not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all

got this from eia daneia my lovable friend.. love love eia mwah mwah..

ohmygad.. cedric diggory. super gwapo.. mas gwapo kay harry potter.. haha.. just a thought..

i am seriously broke. i had to pay my last month's and this month's cellphone bill.. and because i was depressed last saturday, i bought something unimportant. but then, that was because i was really upset. i wasn't able to attend our practice, our plan of going to gateway after was cancelled also. i didnt watch the play production of my friend's batch. and greenbelt pa. but i didnt want to go in all those naman eh. i only wanted to attend the prac then gateway to watch a movie with my friends. but due to some unreasonable whatevers.. walang natuloy. that always happens naman eh. i should learn how to drive na or else i'm gonna be stuck here at home forever. so there, i was badtrip the whole day. tantrums nga eh. but not severe tantrums. duh.. so in the evening, my mom and dad asked me if i want to go out daw. hahaha finally... we went to galle and watched harry potter. full na eastwood eh.. oh yeah cedric..

• Himala, kasalanan bang.. humingi ako sa langit ng... Isang himala?

tensyonado by soapdish..

Nagulat din ako
Nung malaman na hindi lang pala ako
Yung nanghinayang
Nong nagaway tayo noon
At natuluyan sa iyakan at tampo

Chorus:
At sandali lang
Huwag ka munang magsalita
Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala
Ang iniisip ko kung pwede pa ba tayo

At miserable
Paulit-ulit lang ang nangyayari
Paikot-ikot tayo parang bote
At nasanay ka na ba doon
At nalimutan ang aking mga tanong

Chorus 2:
At hindi malinaw
Pwede bang wag kang sumigaw
Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay maligaw
Nagtatanong sayo kung pwede pa ba tayo

Chorus 3;
At sandali lang
Huwag ka munang magsalita
Di ko hahayaan lahat ito ay mawala (repeat)
Nagtatanong sayo kung pwede pa ba tayo

• yehey!!! the OC later.. gonna see seth cohen.. yikee kinikilig si josie jo
• rhia.. 6 more days to go..

this sucks!!! bigtime...

I just read something somewhere.. and it makes me want to break into tears.. as in when i was reading a part of that entry, it's like.. shit!!! i hate you!!!! i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yyyyooooooouuuuuuuu areee ssssssoooooooooooooo mmmmeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnn tttttttooooooooo mmmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iiiiii wwwwwwwiiiiisssssssssshhhhhhhhhhh i didnt get so attached to you.. that i never got used to you being always there for me.. sana you weren't so nice and caring to me before.. sana hindi m sa akin pnafeel na special ako syo..

oh my gosh.. i dont want to be bitter anymore... matagal na yun eh.. for christ's sake.. and that was NOTHING naman.. it was nothing.. nothing talaga.. ggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr........

sige, don't make paramdam. don't do anything.. i hate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! remember that.. you're sooo insensitive and manhid. i thought you were different. but hell was i wrong.. so wrong..

tssss...

shit.. i terribly want to talk to you. normal conversations.. you know.. make me feel naman that you're still there.. at least as a friend. that's the least you can do. not you panget ah. sooo not you..

there are a lot of chocolates here in my house.. grrrr... what a temptation. i must not give in.. but i want chocolates talaga!!! ++++++++pounds again ah.. damnit.. at least chocolates make me happy.. chocolates are better.. hahaha

no one said life's gonna be easy..

i find it really miserable when i come to think that we're losing someone again. yeah.. it's catastrophic. we though we're all going to graduate together. we didn't want to leave anyone behind. but sadly, that's not going to be the case. anyway, i wont go into details anymore because i have to respect her. no one else should know, then gossip about her. that would be too awful. oh well, whatever happens, we'll pray for you and support you. we know you can surmount this. it's only a tragic phase that you have to go through. but it will pass. just help yourself and dont give up. be strong for you, for your family, and for us, your friends.. (the sub).. everything's gonna be fine. and you'll feel better and think better. you'll surely improve. i still believe in you. let this serve as a lesson not only to you but for everyone that it will do you no good. no good at all. it'll make everything worse pa. i'm gonna miss you.. seriously.. but dont worry, you'll always stay in our hearts.

to the most obnoxious, arrogant person. well, not exactly..

ikaw.. kala mo naman ang gwapo mo. well, to tell you honestly, you're soooo not! but.......... anyway.. like what i've said, ang kapal ng mukha mo. i know you'll never get to read this but i just have to let it out. panget ka! sabi ni rhia.. hahaha diba rhia? as if..!!! sabi ni rhia and panget panget mo daw. hindi tayo bagay. diba rhia? love you rhia..

friday night! yeyeah...

grrrr... there are two parties tonight and i wanna go thereeeeee!!!! there's this lasalle static party in san juan and ateneo party in makati. since i was in lsgh party na last night, i want to go naman to ateneo party later. but i doubt if my lola's going to allow me! by the way, my parents are going to arrive tomorrow from US. i miss them already and i'm excited for their pasalubongs for me. hehehe...

ikkwnto ko what i did last night, friday...

where do i start? hmmm.. i'll make kwnto chronologically so it'll be organized... after school, i went home then fixed myself for Pj's birthday party. 4J people were there, so we were introduced. then dinner. then erose asked me if i want to go with her and mika to valle 6 for lsgh's batch party. 3rd year. so there, we left tierra pura by 8pm then went to valle6........ with my 11 year old sister... awesome... just great... can you imagine? she was nagging me 70% of the time.

since my cousin's class from holy had an interaction with lsgh, sila kasama namin last night most of the the time. i was introduced to a lot of people eh but unfortunately, i forgot most of their names. hello? the sound system was too loud. so i acted nalng like i heard their names.moving on.... at the beginning, it was really boring because there were a lot less people than i expected... and it's unorganized. sobra. only a few bands performed, and they weren't even good . but then, it's fine because they were really friendly(?) i had fun, eventually.. some approached me and said something like.."hi i'm blahblah. i'm from lasalle.." "i'm blahblah. you are? what school are you from?" "... do you mind if i introduce my friend to you? coz he has a crush on you.." gutsy noh? because i, myself cant just go around and introduce myself. haha.. there was this freaky guy who came up to me and he was drunk. he leaned so close to me so i stepped backwards. but he leaned again so i moved away na. he's mark daw, nakakainis kasi he was drunk and basta he's eeeewwww... after a few minutes, he approached me again. he asked if i'm doing something tomorrow and if i'm going to static party. after i answered him, i moved away from him na. he was freaking me out. his classmates told me, "sorry, he's drunk na. freaky no?" freaky tlga.. when we got bored inside the function room, we went to the park which is just next to it. yeah playground. swing!!! hahaha.. dun kami sa circular swings. at first there were only a few of us there but eventually, there were a lot of other guys already. martin was the most makulit guy last night. he said to me, "you're drunk!"... i was like, "excuse me, no i'm not! and i don't drink"... "yes you're drunk. you're reddish.." .."i'm naturally red, you can ask phyl pa"... labo.. and he took my phone and hid it! bad boy. hahaha. i missed swings.. i remembered, during my prep days, i would always go to the playground first thing in the morning to save me a swing. then we would compete on who can swing harder and higher. moving on... phyl, mika, tin, me, martin and odi left valle6 then to starbucks, libis. since it was already past our curfew, we went back to valle6 because my cousin's driver was waiting there. we left at around 12:30 when we said that we'd be home by 11pm. hahahaha.. good thing my parents aren't here yet or else they'd get really angry at me. we reached tierra pura past 1am. stayed there for a while. PJ's friends were still there. ate Tin was sleeping already. Kuya Greggy was still out. he had a gig again. ohwelllllll.... basically i enjoyed..

around 2am, my mom and dad called from abroad. yeah, i was glad they called becasue i soooo miss them..

i woke up around 7am. thaaaat early. i checked my phone, 3 new messages. one's from pao.. he woke up soo early. after some texts, natamad nako...

oh yeah, there were three pathetic girls last night. they didn't have other friends ata there eh. and they danced in a slutty and bitchy manner. yuck, feeling hot.. but they're sooo not! no one even bothered to get their names because they were super trying hard to catch attention. yuck! the other girls naman wore super revealing clothes. the other was like wearing "pokpok" shorts. hahaha.. i just noticed.. i mean, girls dont have to wear revealing clothes just to look sexy or hot. i think it's even waaay better if you can look sexy without even trying to.. right? a guy told me once, it's better if a girl wears jeans and shirt but can manage to look good and sophisticated. dba? and expose(well not really expose).. flaunt one asset at a time. not all at the same time. learn how to balance..oh well, just a thought...

i want to go to......................................... tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have four pending books to read.. one's for school, "The Inferno". there's "Duchess", bombshell something book, and "Have Glass Slippers, Will Travel"... i have to feed my mind..

Ok.. so we’re third place in our dance pro.. considering the fact that the judges deducted 15% from our total grade because of the fabric predicament. We still managed to bag the third place. But ofcourse, it still sucks. Bigtime.. but then again, it’s over now.. gotta move on.

It’s easier to blog because you’ll just type in the letters. Less hassle. But I think it’s better to write it eh.. lalng..

My weekend last week, Friday to Saturday night, I spent it with my relatives in Puerto Azul. It was pretty fun. My cousins, sister and I stayed up like until 1:30am or so. We played scrabble and made kuwento at the same time. Hindi pa nga kami dapat matutulog eh but a security guard called our attention. He received two phone calls na daw complaining because we were too noisy. Tapos my cousins nagkwento ng creepy stories and stuff.. like what if that guard’s a ghost nap ala blah blah blah. Hahahha.. all of us ran upstairs kagad. Haha.. pinaka duwag si PJ. Inunahan ba naman ang girls.. is that right? Hahaha.. kuya greggy gentleman, he let the girls go up first. Hahaha… then we went to the beach, had pictorials. Naax… haha..

Oh by the way, due to lack of communication and stuff, we shared the rest house with some other people. But they were all decent naman eh. They were around 12 ata boys and girls. They work already in really good companies like Smart telecoms and URC. Rich kids actually. And they were really nice to us. Ate Tin and I had a crush on one guy. Hehehe.. nice huh?

One of our helpers disappoints me so much. There was a woman the other day, with her two daughters who rung our doorbell. Eh they got the wrong house pala. But our maid still let them in. she let those strangers come in my house. My parents aren’t here pa naman ngayon. The thing is, what if they were evil people and robbed our house? What if they had guns pala? What if they hostage us? I mean, there are endless possibilities. We could get hurt because of her well.. lack of information----that’s an understatement… stupidity… we’ve told them a number of times already the house rules. That before they let anyone in our house, they have to tell the authorized person first. Duuuhhhh…

i finished reading A Knight in Shining Armor last night...... aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwww.... i so love the story.. ganda ganda ganda.. there were a lot of twists but it's all good.. do you believe in reincarnation? hmmm.. who was i kaya in my past life?

well yesterday morning, Patrick and Ace went to my house. then we went to Celeb with my sister. then Starbucks in Convergys, Commonwealth.. after, hinatid na si Ace then me and my sister.

Late afternoon til night, i was with my sis, my cousins, and friends ni Kuya Greggy.. Raymond and Gally. Gally was my Expert Guides classmate for one day. before we were re-sectioned. small world noh? Raymond reminds me of Jappy. haha chinito.. so, Tierra Pura, Galle.. window shopping.. blah blah.. we were all supposed to watch a movie but some shit happened.. Erose, tin and i didnt watch na. we strolled nlng.. bum tlga.. i didnt have much money to spend eh because i'm saving. what else? didnt go into details na ah.. katamad eh.. went back to my cousin's house lahat kami.. then went home past 11pm na.

i was supposed to go out with friends today.. apparently, we didnt push through.. crap! oh well blah blah blah.. so lazy to do anything.. later i'm going to Tierra pura again.. then ortigas maybe. tomorrow, puerto azul with relatives. until sunday na yun. so how well i be able to accomplish my school stuffs now eh? i'm gonna be out of town. so sunday night, i havta cram. real cram. for christ's sake!

oh yeah.. tawagan ko pa pala si Rhia the great. corny tlga ng multiply title. so labo.